.What a crazy, and eventful week it has been! Lol not really, but there's been a few big things that I have realised this week which I would like to share with you:
1) I need new goals. In the last few weeks I have noticed that my personality has been slightly different. I haven't been entirely feeling like me, and I have lost sight of some really important goals I have had in place this year. This might seem strange, but I just haven't felt as bubbly, energetic and driven as I normally do, nor have I been wanting to socialise as much. I have attributed this to my new job, which, as of Monday, is now my old job because I resigned (more on this in a little bit). SO! Now I have started to focus back on my routine and the goals I set at the start of this year. Falling back into a routine that aids my health both physically and mentally, with some clear cut goals in place is step one to getting back to feeling like ME!
2) I never want to change myself to fit the shape that someone else sees as perfect. There is so much talk about "perfection" within society - I have written about it previously - but I think as a result of my recent mental state, I have believed that I'm not good enough. I've noticed myself nitpicking little things about my body that I'm unhappy with. Things that I never would have even thought about, given the mindset I have been in in the last 8 or so months. Having realised this I'm making a conscious effort to stop myself when I do start to have negative comments pop into my mind, and change them to positive thoughts. Doing this is one of the simplest, yet also the hardest actions when in a body shaming mind-frame, but it makes the biggest difference in the end. Realising what your body is capable of, and appreciating that, rather than shaming it for what it isn't, can determine the path you take - that being whether you spiral down further, or whether you grow. I pick the latter.
3) I'm going to spend my life doing what makes me happy. There is no chance I'm wasting a minute of this life that I am blessed with, doing the things that bring me down, or stress me out. In the 3rd hour on day 1 of my most recent job, I knew that it was not for me, and here I am 6 weeks later, feeling the exact same. I took the job because all I was focused on was money, and I didn't really mind what I had to do to get it. At the start of this week I came across a speech which honestly changed my life the moment I heard it. It is a speech my Alan Watts, and if you haven't read/heard it, then I highly recommend you look it up - it is called "What if money was no object?". One section in particular resonates with me, and I will leave it with you to really think about, and I hope you may be able to apply to your own life:
"When we finally got down to something, which the individual says he really wants to do, I will say to him, 'You do that, and forget the money', because if you say that getting the money is the most important thing, you will spend your life completely wasting your time. You will be doing things you don't like doing, in order to go on living - that is to go on doing things you don't like doing - which is stupid! Better to have a short life that is full of the things you like doing, than a long life spent in a miserable way". - Alan Watts
PS. I make some kickass cookies the other day - so here is the recipe!